#forever my color guard idol
Messages as simple as this are what get me through hard days. Knowing you’re cared for by the people you look up to the most, even if they teach elsewhere now.
"Find HER. Find a thousand reasons why you should stay. Find a million different ways to show her you love her. And never let her go to sleep sad."
Having a lot of feels tonight about many things
Feelings are feelings. Issues that are out of my control with coats. Memories of my past year flooding back and how foolish I was to let myself be used. Stress of real life when I get home. Always being a second choice with someone’s affectionate feelings.
Sometimes I just wish I could hide in a turtle shell and not play band for a minute.
Color Guard rankings as of most recent show →
1. Blue Devils 16.9 (7-3)
2. Bluecoats(+4) 16.7 (7-3)
3. Carolina Crown(+4) 16.4 (7-3)
4. The Cadets(-2) 16.2 (7-3)
5. Santa Clara Vanguard(-2) 15.5 (6-29)
6. The Cavaliers(-2) 15.4 (6-28)
7. Phantom Regiment(-2)/Madison Scouts(+3) 15.3 (6-28/7-3)
Do you ever do the thing where you say emotions and then you don’t get a response for a while and it’s awful